It's nearing 3 in the morning, and my friend Saba just left my house. For some reason, people have such a hard time actually being motivated enough to leave, even if there's a curfew involved. I find it both hilarious and meaningful. :P
Whenever Saba and I are hanging out together, I just feel tons better about myself, my life, and my choices. We have such deep and meaningful conversations that actually make me think, and even though we can spend a good 3 or 4 hours talking, it never feels like a long enough time. It's so great to have someone there to listen to me and to help me gain new perspectives on my life, and I feel like a completely new person whenever she leaves.
I've talked about people breaking promises before. I talk about it quite often because it's such a constant occurrence for me. But with her, it's just different. She's probably the most mature person I know, and I can plainly see that she is never out to cause drama or to do anything that would purposely hurt anyone. She's one of the few who have perfected the art of listening and contributing, just as a conversation should be, and we're both at that age now where we're starting to agree on a lot of the same viewpoints. It's nice to know someone who shares that same perspective with me and can see things the same ways that I do. Sharing a mind is a beautiful thing.
The only other person who I feel doesn't (and never will) break off that special bond with me is my friend Shane. It's just one of those things where we feel like we've known each other forever, and just the thought of me doing anything shitty to him hurts me. I finally have someone who is always there when I need an ear or a hug, and someone who makes sure that he makes the time to see me and to call me. No one ever talks on the telephone anymore. It's kind of sad. So whenever he calls, I consider it a special "us" time to talk about our days and to share stories. I hate losing touch with people, but with him, I never have to worry. Not having to worry is pretty nice for once!
After feeling so upset earlier, I realize now that the people who matter most are always going to make sure there's time to spend with me. I may not have many true friends, but the ones that I do have are always going to be around to talk to when I need them the most.
I would write more, but I'm so tired. So I'm going to head to bed. G'night, you beautiful readers.
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